Heartbreaks and Travels...

This is the continuation of, Si Jelly at Koko.

Me: Everything happens for a reason.

Jelly: The tough part is finding the reason, isn't it?

Me: I know you have awesome plans about your future and memorable past, but you got to live your today to the fullest.

Jelly: You don't understand, you don't know how it feels like to lose everything...

Me: (Speechless)

......... and the crying continues....

Since umalis ako papuntang Visayas region ngayon because of my work demand, I decided to write an email to Jelly at sa iba pang broken hearted, para sa ATIN 'to!

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Being a heartbroken is a pain that no one can understand until they have experienced it for themselves. Jelly, friend, you obviously have, therefore you are aware of how fragile your heart is right now. Healing a broken heart will take time, but it is not impossible, though it may feel that way at the time. It is never an easy process to go through, but with right prescription, you will be on your way to recovery and happiness again.

The first thing you should keep in mind is that it is okay to feel sad and grieve about what happened and that you are not stupid for doing so. It is perfectly normal to feel sad and cry after a break up. You have invested most of your time and all of your love and interest on your ex-partner; therefore will go through a sad and painful withdrawal. It is notable that you not grieve all on your own. Sure, there will be times when you will just want to be alone and undisturbed. However, it is important that you talk to your friends and family about it. Talking about it is not only healthy, but will mend your heart quicker because you will release the thoughts and facts that are hurting you so much. Seeking professional advice will be a great help to you as well because your mind will open up and see new perspectives and understandings on what happened. It will help you gather your strength, pick yourself up, and find the happiness you deserve to have.

Accepting the fact that you and your ex-partner are no longer together is a necessity if you are going to start mending your broken heart. If you catch yourself unable to function due to constantly thinking about your ex or repeatedly calling or visiting him for another chance, then chances are you are suffering from love addiction and should seek counseling. Discontinuing a serious relationship is emotionally challenging and can drive you to do things that are unhealthy for your self-being. To avoid entering such hazardous areas, keep yourself occupied. Go out with friends and family to help get your mind off the break up. It is the best to spend as less time alone as you can in the first few weeks of your breakup so that your emotions can slowly and patiently from back into their normal pattern.

Fight the thoughts that tell you that you are a failure and are to blame for the end of your relationship. When a relationship ends it means that the two of you are no longer compatible and that always takes two, not just you. Instead of beating yourself up over what has transpired, examine your ex-relationship by listing the things you enjoyed most about it and then the things that disappointed you and what you believe really caused the breakup. Look at the relationship as a learning experience and an opportunity to improve your relationship skills, and a way to realize what you truly need and want from a relationship.

Hope this helps girl!
No one is ever going to always be there no matter what they promise you. You just gotta suck it up and accept it. Sometimes, a love lost is a love gone forever. I believe that it's not right to let go of what you've had for so long, but it's not right, either, to hold onto what's not there anymore. Letting go is difficult but it's better than holding on when there's nothing left to hold on to. Sometimes people hold onto something too tight cos they're afraid nothing that great will happen to them again. But, remember that most of the time, saving a relationship alone destroys your very own self.

I know its hard to let GO and move on. But someday you will see, eventually things will fall into place when you stop waiting, and start living.

FIGHTING!!!

Love,
Kim
prettydevil19@gmail.com

Last Friday...

5:30 PM

Yey! Maaga akong makakauwi, I missed my bed soooooooooo much!

(Phone rings)

Screeen says, JELLY.

Jelly: Kim kamusta?

Me: Hello, ok naman. Pauwi pa lang ako from office. Ikaw kamusta?

Jelly: Nasa Manila ka ba? Pwede bang pumunta sa inyo?

Me: Naku nasa MARS ako ngayon, joke! Yes, walang rampa ngayon. What's wrong?

Jelly: May share lang ako...

Me: Pagkain ba yan? Tawagan natin sila Tin, gusto mo?

Jelly: Sila na ang una kong tinawagan, kaso weekdays ngayon. May mga pasok sila.

Me: Ah, so last option lang ako?

Jelly: Inarte? Alam ko kasi na palagi kang wala kaya hinuli na kita.

Me: Sus, nagpaliwanag pa. Ano bang meron?

Jelly: Sabihin mo kung hindi ako pwedeng pumunta sa inyo...

Me: Arte much ha? Ikaw pa, GOW lang. Ill wait for you, ok? Ingat ka.

Sa totoo lang, pinagagaan ko lang yung usapan namin ni Jelly. Unang dinig ko pa lang sa boses nya, mukhang malungkot na. Alam ko na agad na may problema sya.

1:00 AM
Sa room ko, nakahiga kaming parehas ni Jelly. Hindi ako lang pala. Sya nakaupo, yakap ang mga tuhod. Umaagos ang luha. Hindi nagsasalita.

Me: Neng, baka gusto mo namang magsalita. Para maka-relate ako sa ine-emote mo.

Jelly: (singhot)

Me: Owkei, salita ka lang pag ready ka na ha? (yawn)

After 33seconds na katahimikan...

Jelly: Koko and I broke up last week.

Me: (Upo) Ang reason?

Jelly: He needs space daw.

Me: If he needs space, he should join NASA.

Jelly: Alam ko na yan.

Me: So, iyon lang? He needs space for what?

(Sa pagkakaalam ko kasi, perfect ang relationship ni Jelly at Koko. Naiinggit nga ako sa kanila eh, wala silang pinag-aawayang malaking bagay, supportive sila sa isat-isa at higit sa lahat, alam kong mahal na mahal nila ang bawat isa.)

Jelly: Yun din ang tanong ko sa kanya. Sinabi ko pa nga sa kanya, kung meron mang iba, he can tell me upfront. But he said na WALA. Matigas ang pagkakasabi nya ng wala and I perfectly know kung talagang nagsisinungaling sya o hindi.

Me: Malay mo naman, na-master na nya bago sabihin sayo. Hehehe

Jelly: Alam mo na hindi kami nag-aaway sa ganyan, hindi sya nagsisinungaling sa akin o kahit kanino. Kapag ayaw nyang marinig mo ang isang bagay, hindi nya na lang sasagutin ang tanong mo.

Me: Sabagay, ganun nga si Koko. Pero things do change and so are people. Wala ka bang napapansin na kakaiba sa kanya?

Jelly: We're normal naman. Hanggang sa these past few months, he's not frequently calling or txting me. Naisip ko busy lang sya. Then all of a sudden sumulpot sya sa office. Inaya akong mag-dinner. He said sorry kung na-neglect nya ko ng mga nakakaraang panahon. Sabi ko naiintindihan ko dahil parehas kaming busy. Sabi ko pa nga lets make it up to each other, gumala kami sa darating na weekend.

...Long pause....

Jelly: He said na may sasabihin sya. Alam mo yung itsura nya na haggard, na alam mong may dinadala sya. Nag-alala naman ako. Tapos ang kasabi sabi sa akin. He wants his freedom. Ang tagal kong hindi nagsalita. Ganun din sya. Basta nakatungo lang sya.

Me: Anong sinabi mo after?

Jelly: Syempre nagtanong ako anong problema, anong nagawa ko, may iba na ba. Typical questions. Inaabangan ko na ngang sabihin nyang meron ng iba, na may pagkukulang ako.. Pero hindi eh, alam mo kung anong sinabi nya? Wala akong kasalanan. He just woke up one morning na hindi nya na ako mahal.

Ang sakit. Paano nangyaring hindi nya na ako mahal, kung walang iba? Possible bang dahilan ng break up yon? May dahilan kung bakit he fall out of love from me. Pero paulit ulit nyang sinabi na walang iba, na walang problema sa akin. Sya ang may problema. Alam mo yun? Mas matatanggap ko pa na ako ang may problema eh, kasi may pagkakataon akong itama at wag syang mawala sa akin. Pero hindi eh... Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko that moment. Kami ni Koko, for the past 4 years, wala kaming pinag-awayan, meron man nagagawan agad namin ng paraan, kami na laging nakasuporta sa isat-isa. Alam mo yun lahat ng plano namin together was all shattered in front of me...

Me: Paano kayo naghiwalay?

Jelly: Sabi ko, ayaw ko ng ganun. Pag-isipan nya munang mabuti. Kung nagsasawa na sya sa relasyon namin o sa routine namin. Pwede naming pag-usapan yun. Sabi ko I can give him space. Pero hindi ang break up.

Sabi nya, masaya naman sya sa flow ng relationship namin... Not until these past few months. Talaga daw pinag-isipan nyang mabuti yung moment na yun. Sabi ko, Ill give him another week, mag-isip sya ulit, alalahanin nya ang mga pinagdaanan at pinagsamahan namin sa loob ng apat na taon. Saka nya sabihin ulit sa akin lahat yun, baka may na-miss lang sya sa pag-iisip nya.

Me: So how did you two end up like this?

Jelly: I texted him earlier today. Sabi ko kung nakapag-isip na sya, magkita kami.

....Long pause ulit..

Jelly: He replied, ang sabi "Inalala ko lahat mula simula natin, and that moment, even until now, that you are the girl every man could wish for. Pero iyon pa din ang sagot ko, walang nabago sa nararamdaman ko. Sorry Jelly. I know you've been a good friend and a perfect girlfriend to me, sorry to leave you this way. But I dont love you anymore at ayaw kitang masaktan. Sobrang buti mo." Ang gara, hindi ko matanggap. Walang dahilan, basta hindi ka na lang mahal? Kim, anong explanation don. I really dont understand!

Me: All I can say is, "No amount of hope can bring back to life a relationship that just died a natural death..."

P.S

Saka na yung mahabang payo ko kay Jelly, kasi nagO-OT na naman ako. Hehehe!

Inaantok na ako, pero nagising ako sa mga lutang na banat ng office mate ko. Siguro nga puyat na din sya sa tatlong araw na sunod sunod na over time namin. Ang pasok namin is 8AM - 7PM from Monday - Thursday and 8AM - 5PM every Friday. At tatlong araw na kaming 12AM nakakapag-log out. Wow!

So ayun nga, bago lang kasi si office mate at nung unang mga months nya eh nasa galaan naman ako (work related naman!) At ito ang pinaka-favorite ko sa usapan namin na hindi ako makaget-over kaya kahit wala akong time magsulat ngayon, GO pa din ako.

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Me: Office mate, anong grado ng eyes mo? (naka-salamin kasi sya)

Office mate: (seryoso ang mukha habang nagta-type sa keyboard) Lahat?

Me: (seryoso din) Oo, isama mo na yung grado nung third eye mo!

• ** Kalokang girlie to, ilan kaya ang matang sinasalaminan nya, maiintindihan ko pa sana kung ang sinagot nya eh, "PAREHAS?". Huwaw! Nanlaki nga ang eyes ko don eh, hehehe.

Nagising ang diwa ko, kaya ko pang mag-OT hanggang bukas straight duty pa basta kasama ko si Office mate.

P.S.

Siguro hindi nakakatawa para sa iba, hindi talaga ako maka-move on dyan.
Pasensya na, mababaw lang

On the car, Im calling Muffin but he's not answering his phone. So i txted him that Im going out with Tin and the rest of my close friends.

7:15 PM
Fish Out of Water

Ako na lang ang hinihintay, yey! Grand Entrance. Winner!
Pagkalapit ko, Tin immediately snatched the paperbag Im holding which contains:

TOSTADOS, AS the name implies, are toasted strips of bread. However, prior to toasting, each slice is coated with a mixture of sugar and margarine. It is perfect with coffee, or as siding for spaghetti, or ice cream.

SALVARO is a wafer-thin, crisp-brown biscuit, shaped into an elongated oval, and approximately ten cms in length and four cms wide. It uses entirely indigenous ingredients such as coconut, shortening, sugar and flour.

OTAP is an oval-shaped, crispy treat, which has become a trademark of Cebu. It is approximately 9 ms in length, 4.5 cm wide and about half a cm thick. It is made of eggs, flour, shortening, sugar and margarine. Otap has a unique flaky texture, a distinctive sweetness, and an accent of burnt flavor to it, that places this product as among the very best provincial specialties in the country’s baking industry.

SUNFLOWER is a biscuit shaped after the flower with a diameter of 7.5 cm. It has a subtly distinct flavor and aroma evoked by the liquorice-flavored anise seeds that are strewn all over the biscuit’s surface.

HOJALDRES. One of the newest in the delicious product lines of Pinky’s Galletas, Hojaldres embodies the best characteristics of both a biscuit and cookie. Somewhat similar to”otap” in texture, but it is slightly more substantial. The hojaldres is approximately6 cms in diameter and about one cm thick. Its rich flavor and aroma and its crispiness and texture make hojaldres a much sought after treat from Pinky’s Galletas.

GALLETAS is the Spanish term for biscuit. This thin crispy treat comes in neatly wrapped packets of threes. Each biscuit is approximately 5.5 cms in diameter. Made of basic local ingredients in just the right quantities, galletas are subtle and simple, reserve in evoking a strong flavor, yet a delicious snack item that Filipinos love so much.

LINUNGAHAN. This miniature pie-shaped biscuit, approximately 5.5 cms in diameter, is basic enough in taste and texture to be a main snack item or dessert siding. The crunchy exterior “crust” surrounds a delightfully sweet brown filling with the added surprise of tiny sesame seeds. Its ingredients include flour, shortening, margarine, sugar, and salt.

ROSQUILLOS, on the other hand, has been a household name for many generations in Cebu for its denizens and visitors. Rosquillos is a circular cookie about half an inch with a hole at the center. It is a sweet delight made up of eggs, flour, shortening, sugar and margarine.

CHICHARON. Chicharon is a crispy deep-fried pork skin, flavored salty and hot. One may choose from two classifications: in the “special” pack, the chicharon has a little strip of pork fat that comes with the skin; the regular pack is purely skin. The chicharon has undergone a highly tedious process of cooking. It is deep fried, sometimes sun-dried or oil-drained, cooled, and reheated. The process is repeated from three to four times.

....... and dried mangoes of course! hehehe.

Tin: "Alam mo namang tatlo kami, bakit tig-iisa lang to?" Said Kristine Hazel na pinakatimawa sa tatlo, hehehe (peace Tin!)

Me: Meron pa sa kotse Miss, nakakahiya naman kasi sayo. Alam kong magrereklamo ka.

Bum: Hahaha! Si Kim pa, alam mo naman kahit saan makarating yan, meron tayong tatlo. (Me: love you Bum!)

Mika: Weeeee? May gitara Kim? Bwahaha!

Me: Oo meron, ihahampas ko sa'yo. Lukaret na to, papahirapan mo pa akong magdala. As if naman may musically inclined sa inyong tatlo.

Mika: Eh db maganda daw ang mga gitara sa Cebu?

Me: Kung idi-display mo lang naman sa bahay nyo, jan ka na lang bumili sa tabi tabi. Excess baggage ko pa yun. Autistic na to.

Bum: Mukhang may jetlag ka pa, Cebu ka lang naman galing ah? Hahaha!

Me: Sabog na naman ata tong si Mika eh, hehehe. Saka si Muffin, hindi nya sinasagot ang mga txt at tawag ko, hindi ako nakapagpaalam eh.

Tin: Baka busy lang? Imbyerna ka agad dyan.

Me: Eh....

...dumating na ang order namin.... Which is happy fiesta pala!

3 felafels with chilli humus, sweet chilli & garlic sauce,
6 large king prawns char grilled with sundried tomato pesto
char grilled chicken breast fillet with mustard dill sauce
Smoked salmon with mustard dill sauce
Butterfish char grilled with extra virgin olive oil & malden sea salt
Atlantic salmon char grilled with mustard dill sauce
Dory char grilled with mustard dill sauce
Fresh tuna steak char grilled with sundried tomatoes kalamata olives, extra virgin olive oil & malden sea salt
Calamari 6 rings lightly dusted & fried with sauce.

BURP! Thanks Mika, sana lageng first payday mo! hehehe.

After magpahinga ng kaunti, we decided na maglakad-lakad at magpa-picture syempre! hehehe.
Nagtxt pa din ako kay Muffin.. I even tried to call him, kaso ring lang eh.

Nang mapadaan kami sa Zuni Restaurant and Wine Bar, parang nakita ko si Muffin. Pero di ako sure eh, sa pagkakaalam ko kasi, birthday daw yun at iinom sila sa bar. Ang sosyal naman, kung sa Zuni pa nila naisipang uminom db?
So huminto ako at tinitigan kong mabuti yung lugar na pinagkakitaan ko kay Muffin.

At ang inaakala kong madaming tao, apat lang pala (well, madame na yun. More than 1). I already recognized Eric and his wife Chona from afar. And... And a girl flirtatiously laughing with Muffin with matching hampas pa sa hita.. Gracious!
Dumilim agad ang paningin ko, birthday party pala ah? Pero nagpaka-cool lang ako..

to be continued...

One of my friend e-mailed me this, panalo eh! So I decided to post. Enjoy!

Girls' and Gays' Most Maldita Moments

The last one I heard from a colleague. Go, add your own taray line!

1. On the first day of the Mango sale, the sister of my
friend was looking around and picked up a dress when a woman
at the counter started screaming,"Put that down,
that's mine!" The sister of my friend looked up,
looked at the woman up and down, raised an eyebrow, and
replied, "Excuse me. You are NOT small'"

2. A supervisor once told a worker who has difficulty in
understanding instructions, "Ang ulo, hindi lang yan
pinapatong sa leeg, ginagamit din yan sa pagiisip."

3. A friend told another friend, "Naku, magme-makeup
muna ako, baka magmukha akong yaya mo." The other
friend replied, "Wag na, magmumukha ka lang yaya ko na
naka-makeup. "

4. I told my then boyfriend during a fight, "Even on
your smartest day, you're not half as smart as I am on
my dumbest!"

5. "Ako, I was born beautiful. Ikaw, you were just
born."

6. A letter posted on a car windshield in UP:
"Sir/madam, the parking space that we have reserved is
for the College Secretary, not for you. Guard."

7. When I saw a friend I haven't seen in a long time, she
told me, "Grabe, lalo ka pang tumaba!" So I told
her, "Ikaw din, lalo ka pang pumangit!"

8. Pag sinisingitan ako sa pila, nagpaparinig ako. I say,
"Ang pilang ito, according to beauty. Mga panget
muna."

9. From the movie She's The Man: "Girls with an
ass like mine don't go out with boys with a face like
yours."

10. "Maliban sa mukha mo, ano pang problema mo?"

11. I once told an officemate who kept on bragging about
her new shoes, " Sale , right?"

12 I pointed a "7 items or less" sign to a
clueless pasosyal at the supermarket. She bitchily answered,
"I can read!" Sabay irap. So I shot back with,
"I know, but can you count?"

13. "Tuwing nakikita kita, gusto ko mag-sorry sa eyes
ko."

14. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be bitchy.
It's an involuntary reaction whenever I encounter ugly
people."

15. Man: "Hey baby, what's your sign?"
Woman: "Do not enter."

16. Man: "how do you like your eggs in the
morning?"
Woman: "Unfertilized. "

17. After receiving her pay slip and realizing how much
she's paying for tax, a sosyal officemate exclaimed,
"Ang mga poor ba nagbabayad din ng tax?"

18. During a hike at Mt. Mayon , we had a maarte companion.
When we ran out of water, our guide got us some from a
natural spring. The maarte girl said, "Dini-drink ba
yan?" I told her, "Bakit, sa inyo ba ang water
chinu-chew?"

19. Overheard from 2 kids talking.
Kid 1: "Lahat tayo galing kay Adam and Eve."
Kid 2: "Hindi yan totoo. Sabi ng papa ko, galing tayo
sa unggoy."

Kid 1: "Hindi natin pinag-uusapn ang pamilya mo, kaya
wag kang magulo!"

20. A friend told his officemate: "I'm impressed.
I've never encountered such a small mind inside such a
big head before."

21. Bading: (envying a girl na crush ng crush nya)
"Isang butas lang ang lamang mo sa kin!"

22. I was staring at an ugly bystander in their street. The
ugly guy snapped, "Bakit ang sama mo makatingin?"
I snapped back, "Eh bakit ang sama mo tignan?"

23. A friend once told me, "Ang ganda mo!" I
answered: "Thank you, sana ikaw rin."

24. I told this to an ex: "I must admit you brought
religion to my life. I never believed in hell till I met
you."

25. "When a cashier tells me she doesn't have
change, I say: "And... kaninong problema yun?"

26. "Kung lahat ng tao galing sa unggoy, bakit ikaw,
mukha kang kabayo?"

27. "Ang pogi-pogi mo wala kang pera? Eeewww!"